It seems these past years I am always late in welcoming a new year. And I rarely get the chance to reflect on the past one. It is something that I miss, something that Bas always says is intrinsic to me, and I think he it right. But in between the hurrying to finish work, the taking care of the children during break time (Bas works during the holidays) and my sister who always visits around Christmas, I have not had much time to myself. Do not get me wrong – I enjoy the Christmas holidays. But I do miss time for myself and for these sorts of things.
So here I am, sitting down to try and catch up. Sort of.
I won’t go into 2016. It was a very special year for me (our daughter, Emmi), a hectic one (work-wise), a worrying one (the world). I find I have very little to say about it now, except that I am so grateful for Emmi. She is the happiest girl and simply holding her cheers you up.
On to 2017.
I feel I should have a ton of good intensions. But the exact contents feel a little personal, or not defined enough yet, to share. I did single out 12 themes (which seems to be the thing nowadays and obviously it got stuck in my mind), that I would loosely like to focus on:
- Career & work
- Read Up
- Social Justice
Some of these are inevitable (I will have to come up with some sort of plan work-wise, since my contract ends in April). Some are things I want & need to finish (PhD thesis!). Others have to do with this feeling of wanting to be more engaged with the world, social issues, politics. Some affect my personal life most of all. Most are a mix of the small and the big picture.
I will probably tell you more about each of these over the course of the year. I would not be me if I did not have sub-items for each of the themes. Things I might want to work on in small doses, or little projects that might be done in a month. Some are entirely too optimistic (saving money when you are about to lose your income? Then again, until April, this is probably the wise thing to do), others should be achievable. But that’s what goals are for right? To have something to strive towards, not to end up with a perfectly checked-off list. Also, I noted them down and now that I look at the subitems I ofcourse already want to change things around. But: onwards! (I have to encourage myself, because I tend to become embarrassed about this sort of stuff, and sharing it makes me feel vulnerable).
Mostly, I want to do good, better. I want to stand still and appreciate the little moments. I want to overcome some boundaries. I want to listen. I want to learn to speak about things. I want to engage. I want to work towards something meaningful. I want to hug and appreciate and be kind to loved ones. I want to create time and calm in the midst of the multiple storms. I want 2017 to be a good year, despite the political odds. And if those dissapoint, I want to at least be part of doing something about it, and not just sit and watch and be sceptical and afraid.
So yes, I have plans. Even if they still are, and probably sound, extremely vague.
Last but not least: I wish you all a happy, loving and healthy 2017.